Effect Essay

When I was in high school there was this one teacher that would always pick on me. He was my math teacher.   I guess we could say it took me a little longer to get the hang of things than normal people but once I got the hang of what I was doing I did pretty well. He was one of those teachers that had his favorite students and I diffidently wasn’t one of them.  There were days when I woke up that I would dread going to school since I knew I was going to have to go to his class.  What made him be the worst teacher was that   I would be sitting in class paying attention like I’m suppose to and trying to learn what we were doing and he would call on me every time and I since I didn’t know what I was doing he made me look like I was stupid in front of the whole class. There would even be students that were talking to each other and not paying attention but that didn’t matter.    Because of him I now I have no confidence in myself, I never learn anything in class and it’s taking me longer to graduate from college. 

                I have no confidence in my work.  I stress about doing my home work I stress about whether or not I’m doing it right and  what the teacher is going to think if I didn’t to my home work right.  Whenever anyone ask me to do something for them I make up some excuse to why I can’t do it because I’m afraid I’m going to do it wrong.

                I never did learn anything in math class.  Instead of trying to learn like most students do during class I was sitting there worrying weather or not I was going to be called on and if I was if I was going to know the answer or if I was going to make a foul out of myself.  I find that I learn more when I know I’m not going to have to worry about whether or not I’m going to be called on since I can actually pay attention to what the teacher is doing. 

                Since I have such a bad experience in high school I have been in college for 4 years, what’s wrong with that right?  Well my program is only two years.  Since  I’m afraid of making a foul out of myself  and worrying about what people think of me I decided to take only online classes  which isn’t bad but when the classes I need are only offered certain semesters or if there even offered online It takes a little longer to graduate. 

Let’s just say that teacher has made me school life a lot harder than it should be.   I’ve even had an anxiety attacks and have had to take medications.  Maybe I should just think about myself and not worry about what everyone else thinks about me.   I should realize that I not everyone is going to now every answer of any problem and that sometimes it takes people longer than others to catch on to things.